As Jan 7th approached and as I tried to grasp the realization that an entire year has passed, many things came to mind as you might imagine. First, I am grateful for the time I had with Jack and all the lessons he taught me that will remain with me forever. I have had the opportunity to be around other parents who are in similar situations and the common theme is that our children have been teachers and examples to us. Jack was no different. Looking back, he spent most of his life being an example of unconditional love, good humor, and acceptance. He was unwavering in his love for you, me, Jesus and anyone he met, be it friend, acquaintance or stranger.
I am extremely grateful to have called him my son. I love you, Jack. I am also grateful for the love and support of our family and friends. This year, however blurred its memory may have been at times, would not have been nearly as tolerable and even fulfilling without you. Friendships have been rekindled, others have been strengthened, and bonds have been reinforced. Thank you all for your presence and prayers.
Second, I am sad-not all the time, but it is unavoidable at times. Jack was such a big part of Mary and my daily life that it is not even possible to fill the void. We know that our lives have been dealt a curveball, but life goes on. I do have, as April calls them, “Jack moments”. I think of them as “Jack flashes”, where this sudden rush of emotion comes upon you and all you can do is wait it out for a few moments and hope nobody catches you in this compromised emotional state (that’s code for crying).
I miss you, Jack.
Third, I am reassured that Jack is now pain free and living in Glory with his grandparents and other loved ones that have gone on ahead. KnowHisPeace was started as we journeyed through life facing Jack’s disease, but it also refers to the peace we have knowing that Jack has met Jesus face to face and has been welcomed home. Thank you, Jesus.
I am a grateful, sad, reassured dad that is blessed with a loving wife and three fabuloso children; an unbelievable family including the best sister ever, terrific nieces and nephews, incredible in-laws and the best cousins; and simply put - a super group of friends.
There is so much to be thankful for, but for now just smile, laugh, cry wherever you are, remembering how Jack touched your life. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers this day.
